| in all the old familiar places.
i want it to rain.
it's the only thing that's inspired me at all lately.
they don't care.
none of them.
(unhealthy, terrible thoughts xanga.)
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| blah blah blah.
i'm bored, with everything.
as usual. |
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| i can't afford to pay my rent or purchase my prescription medication.
so i guess i am going to suddenly stop taking it without consulting my doctor, which a thousand different sources say is the worst idea ever...but we'll see how it goes. it's kind of like an expireimetn i guess.
started classes, they're...classes.
chris is a pretty bangin good kid and i enjoy his company. we're watching the starwars trilogy on wednesday and that is exciting i guess. and we're actually watching, not "watching".
i don't really know where my life is heading. everytime i think i have a clue about the future things change.
que sera sera.
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| pretty much that means my life is great.
fuck anyone who doesn't love godzilla.
fuck them hard. |
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| it's a bitch girl
but it's goin to far
'cause you know it don't matter anyway.
i don't think i believe in unconditional love.
or that i will ever have a long lasting, healthy relationship.
this appears to be a common theme over the course of a few years.
i feel like i'm at a completely different point in life than every person i know.
i mean, i'm doing a lot. i have my jobs and community college.
but everyone else is either stuck in the post-high school/pre-college slump.
or they are away at college doing what college kids do.
or (the new people i meet) are much older than me, and while i feel probably closest to their level, i am still just an 18 year old girl recently out of high school.
i don't feel close to anybody anymore.
next semester will be crazy. crazycrazycrazycrazy.
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